0.o

bought a new book, its about vampires and love. noo its not twilight lol. this is about a girl who was born as a vampire who goes to this skool of vampires. who have new students that are human she falls in love with a human and bites and drinks blood for the first time. 0.0. lol ok right now im having trouble breathing with sucks hahahah i think its my nerves lol. im on my space playing with the pets on it. I LOVE TWILIGHT. ITS COMING OUT ON DVD ON THE 21 ILL BE AT WALLIE WORLD AT LIKE 9 TILL AFTER MIDNITE HEHEHEHEHE YAY. umm yea i was writing to the writer i hope she reads what i gots ta say :0. well i dont know what to write about hmmmm nothing to say lol
im very loling huh hehehehe.
ttyl

um idk ok

no one notices if you miss a day of school because no one cares that your there or not? that the people who talk to you really do wish you would disappear. do they understand what its like to be all alone? i spend every day alone. no one calls me no one asks if i want to hang out. my old friends have forgotten me and my new ones are fake ones who only talk to me cuz im there. is it true that no matter what it doesnt matter that i will always be alone that my one wish will never come true? have i fallen so far that iv lost my self. when im asked a simple question of whats your favorite color it changes bc someone likes that color so i have to like it too. that my old friend hated something i liked so i stopped liking that thing i like to find out that it was the only thing holding me together. so i fell apart when my friend left me. if you ask me if i wanted to hang out id probably just say no. bc first of all i wouldn't expect you to talk to me then second i would dream of you to ask me to hang out and third it would just hurt. is it so wrong to hate you, to hate me. can some one see how much it hurts everyday. how alone i am in this world. i hate me they hate me. but the stupid thing is every morning i stair at my self in the mirror and wish why cant i be pretty like them. i try and look cute just to see if anyone can notice. and when someone says " you always look so cute " you see right threw it you know there lieing. so you try harder to find that theres no way you can ever be cute. hahahaha i should just give up but im not. NO ONE EVEN NOTICES IF IM THERE OR NOT!! bad thing is ill just keep trying

i figured who i am

i am the one who walks in the hallways with my head held down,
i always walk out the door with a sad frown,
i wait and see if anyone notices me,
but im almost always invisible
to everyone around me,

even if you talk to me
your secretly wishing why me,

i sit away from everyone
which isn't true you sit away from me
as if im the pleg
or is this is a avoid her game,

i dont wear makeup or perfume,
im not even pretty,
not always gitty
i dont know how to be like you,
iv given up on trying too,

i go home alone,
and do nothing but sit,
how can you blame me for being like this,
i try not to cry,
but its sometimes slips,
is there away to get out of this?

can you possibly save me from this hell
possibly get me out of my shell
i lay awake hopeing for this
can you make fun of me for doing this

but now i see
its not me
its you
and i shall change
these things that i do
ill prove you wrong
ill prove im right
im better off alone
tonight




sorry i was bored and well im not realy good at writing poetry ( and my published one wasnt that great :( )

R~A~W~R

well ok im bored yup thats the truth. so iv been thinking alot about writing a book. but the problem is how do i do it. lol yes i know you think im stupid. but hey you pick up a pencil and try writing a story. its not that easy, and its time consuming. but iv been thinking about this one story that i wanted to write. but it seems so similar to others in a way. but yet i want it to be something different. something no one has read before. hm i shall take alot of time and think this threw. iv probely read over 1000 books in my life time. so i shall read more and get the feel of the writing. if it happens id be glad to put up a preveiw. ( it shouldnt be bad since no one reads my blog lol) any who this is katie and im leaving hahahah ttyl for now