December 21 2012 apocalypse

Today is supposed to be the apocalypse that the Mayans predicated. So far nothing has happened. I really don't think anything will happen but if it did that would be pretty freaking creepy. I admit i was about 22% afraid to fall asleep last night, just in case something happened. But i wake up and its a beautiful day. I can hear my family up stairs complain about whatever they complain about. And so im good. Between reality and non-reality i think the mayans were on something. Every time someone predicts the future they either crazy or on something right? Unless its that dejavu (not spelled right but whatever) thing but i mean iv had it to where i dream of something and than sometime later that exact moment happens just like how i dream it. But i don't think they went threw that. I kept telling everyone that technically its 2013 right now with all the leap years and the time forward and time back its just messed up the time they think it is. So here is to surviving another prediction that doesn't come true. Katie

What a bad day

Today has been a horrible day. No matter what im always blamed for stuff that i haven't done. My stupid parents are rude. If i had someone i could go to i would i mean ill be 21 monday i can do anything i want but i have no where to go. Nor do i have a job. i have no money what am i supposed to do. And than there was the shooting today. Those poor children. and there familys. Just more than a week from christmas. This isnt a good year. My heart goes out to them

Happy Thanksgiving among other things

We bathed the turkey made the stuffing and mom stuffed it. o.o. It was creepy. Lauras been up all night sick. we went to mcdonalds and she puked lol i left it for the cleaners to clean up. yup im a bitch. i figured you came to my country you might as well do the dirty jobs. side night im saying my country bc i am from here birthright since the boats sailed here and theres some indian blood somewhere in my line so its my land. geez im so teritoriyal i see a mexican and i want to say bad things XD. im not a bad person i just hate bad ppl.

Presidential Election

Well were all fucked. You stupid Americans voted for Obama we all might as well move outa country. Another 4 years of hell to come. To those who voted for him you suck. You deserve nothing less than a beating. President Obama was horrible for our country. He did nothing for us. He wasted our money. And a whole lot more. What are you going to do about your children now?? You left ur childs future in the hands of a man who once said he didnt care about american jobs. I have to live here wtf am i going to do i cant afford his shit.

almost halloween

My family is a bit stressed we have less than 7 days to finish our haunted walk through . We are far but we need to buckle down and work harder. I hope we scare even more people this year. Best part of all its free. :) I miss talking to him but thats all.

over, done, gone

Well today kyle told me that he could never love me. And that for months now he didnt want to date me. Even though i asked him if he still liked me he kept saying yes. He basically said it was my fault. That i couldn't take a hint. Well when i ask you if you still liked me and wanted to date me, and you say yes. What the fuck do you expect me to think. Oh haha you like me wheres the hint that you don't?? Josh was right waiting for someone who doesn't care about you is a waste of time. Josh even said that he would steal me from kyle even if kyle loved me. Which he doesn't. He says i pressed the relationship thing. I didn't press it i just asked if he still wanted to date me. All i was doing was making sure of his feelings for me. I wasn't asking if he would date me right fucking now. Ah hello! i know how hard his life is and all that. I wasn't asking to date right now. So now everything my fault and we are totally done forever. Yes i cried, i cried so much that my eyes hurt. My cheeks feel funny. I did however noticed that sometimes im a pretty crier o.o. TMI. It hurt when he said all that. My heart hurts. For months now im contemplated leaving him and all his B.S but i couldnt every time it came to it i couldnt do it. Because i couldn't see a world without kyle in it. He now choose to leave me. In a way i wasnt good enough. That its my fault. That i ask to much of him. He says he hates jealous people. Hmmm well when you only see your friends and not once see me how am i supposed to act. 2 years that iv known him almost more than a year that iv liked him. And he does this to me. He wont even miss me. He wont even think of me. Ill be the one missing him. Ill be the one thinking of him. All i have left to do is forget him.

post breakup ? or wait?

I was talking to Kyle, and allot of the time he makes it sound like hes not interested in me anymore. A year ago he would be telling me how pretty i was or how glad he was that i was around. That he liked me and all the stuff he wanted to do with me. But the day i met him he changed. I feel that allot of the time hes only keeping me around just cuz. Is that bad to say? My heart is breaking almost daily waiting for him to pay attention to me. And when he does he has hardly anything to say. He use to give me butterfly's like no other guy has. But now im lucky to even smile because of him. I know how hard it is on him, but he cant see how hard it is on me. Im turning 21 i thought i would of had a bf right now. Having fun with my youth but no. Hes to busy working. supporting his family being by himself. Thats one of his answers "I just want to be left alone" And he sends these signals like go find some other guy. I dont know what to do. And yes i have talked to him about it like a million times. He says every time he will try harder but every time he gets worse so iv stopped even saying anything. Kyle is really hurting me these days and i dont know what to do. For the most part iv known him 2 years now. He was someone id go to for anything cuz i trusted him. But he never comes to me. Its either bottle it up or go to tay. His girl best friend. I dont think guys should have girls as best friends. But thats just mean to say right grrr. I will give kyle till the end of Dec to buck up. If not than I think i have to walk away. 2 years knowing him 1 year waiting for him to ask me out. Iv waited such a long time. I cant wait any longer. He hardly talks to me. When i had a phone he would never call me. He never wants to see me. I think that its over before it even started

Where Are All the Good Guys At???

Im sitting here watching a drama called personal taste and i keep wondering why arnt guys like this guy?? Where did the good guys go?? Why do guys suck so much lately?? And i came to this conclusion there all idiots. I mean come on wheres the romance of it all. Wheres my damn flowers, and chocolates well ok sugar-free chocolates. Wheres the dinner and a movie. Wheres the watching the stars or going to the drive in. The walks in the park while holding hands. Guys these days are just lazy. I want the type of guy who would do all that and more for me. I mean i want the kind of guy who would stop doing whatever hes doing and go to walmart to buy me pads. Who would drive all the way to his parents house to get pain meds for when im in pain. Wheres that guy at?? Are there any good guys left in this world or are we stuck with idiots. Wheres the guy opening the car door for you. Or walking you to your door after a date and just giving you a kiss goodbye. Not expecting any more or any less. To say it frankly im disappointed in men theses days there all pigs.

just everything

Batmans ok now, except he has a big eye and a little eye and still rubs at them. They produce nasty stuff in the little eye and the nose. Idk if thats bad but hes alive. Iv sold 3 dogs. One is hopefully leaving today his master said hed pick her up today but since my phone no works o.o. i cant call or anything. I cant even charge the damn thing. So iv been looking for a new phone but turns out id need a whole lot of money which i dont have. kyle and i are ok i guess. He lost his mom, i wish i could go see him. But i cant drive and kenz wont take me. He is getting a new place hopefully there arnt any pretty girls there to take his attention away from me. Its already very low attention which drives me crazy. But i cant change that. my Nancy seems to have gotten into a fight her foot is hurt and i put some meds on it. I just hope she didnt like it away XD. aunt rindi came down shes silly she bought those 5 toed shoes. Weird things she loves um cuz they are like monkey feet XP. iv been talking to dylan, no worries no worries nothing there. and besides i dont have a phone anymore no way to talk to him :(. my trip was ok. il write about it next time hopefully. lets just say oregon coast is amazing

drama, blood, and love

Our dog batman accidentally got stepped on. its been two days and idk what to do. I mean hes hurt i wish there was dog insurance If i had the money id soooo get him operated on. I just hope he lives even if hes a little slow and walks funny. If he dies ill be really sad. but im glad he ate 4 1/2 chicken balls he wont eat anything but chicken and getting him to drink water ug so we but an eye dropper we got some in him. he loves being around us and gets stressed out i can see it. but from all the loving hes getting i bet hes enjoying it even if his head is killing him. Well kyle and i still arnt dating but hopefully soon. But he did say that he would wear a wedding ring if he got married. I also learned he had been engaged once. AT first i was jealous but i realized if they had gotten married i wouldnt have my kyle now. Im so thankful for that. is that bad??? sometimes its frustrating he works alot and is tired so he falls asleep. I miss him so much at times. But iv been reading some self help off google. And it says to express your self. they wanted you to express yourself in a way that doesnt hurt his feelings. WE cant not blame him for being busy. Just express our selves that we miss him and hope that soon we can see each other. It says dont hold things back in a relationship if were open and admit to how were feeling than we can become a stronger couple. my platelets were low which is good and lost 8 pounds. hope its the same tomorrow. I reallllly want to see kyle. I want our first kiss. love katie :P

Girls night out, troubles, thoughts, and goings ons

Had a great night with my sister jessica, and our friend tosha, and toshas friend whoever her name is lol. We went and ate at the movie theater and seen snow white and the huntsmen lets just say the huntsmen was worth seeing the movie for. He is one sexy man. lol. The movie had parts that reminded me of twilight breaking dawn and eclipse and also the hunger games and the lord of the rings. It made me laugh even tho they were serious sceens its j ust parts remind me of parts of the other movies. HMM was a twilight fan who made the movie??? Things with kyle are ok, not the best but not the worst. Yes im still getting jealous but i cant help it. He sees his friends more than me. which is about 99.9% of the time im the 1% of the time o.o. so yes i do get to be jealous. watching korean shows loving them. i know how to say yes and no in korean XP. silly me right maybe if i keep up with the shows ill learn the lang. well im glad i quite kfc worst job ever!!! worst food ever. gross ass chicken and the other employees gross. they would eat the food right after it was cooked oh yea take a cook some fries. uh hello no. i hardly ate there once a mash bowl but thats bc i passed out at work they wouldnt let me leave not even the second time i passed out. i was sick and they still kept me around the food. hmm health hazard. HA in there face when i quite which was like 2 weeks ago i think lol but i made over 500 dollars there :) thats all :P love katie

Work GRRRR

i simply dont like working at kfc. I mean ok its an okay job but it pays like nothing. And my feet are killing me they give me no break. NO BREAK that really pisses me off and theres this one girl she bugs me. i want to hit her but i know i cant. IM like sweet like that. MY cute boss got transferred which sucks. he was awesome :(. its almost kyles birthday idk what to do

My First Job

I am now an employee of KFC. Heck yes i cant wait to start working. Its near my moms work so after i get off i can just walk right over to her. And KFC seems really awesome i cant wait. Things with kyle havent been moving at all. Sigh. I had a bad headache today than my big toe hurt so badly. I also found a new tv show well its not new but its so funny its called practical jokers its very funny. :) <3 KT

:) :P

Well lately iv been liking kyle more but yes he makes me cry more. I hate that his bf's are some girls. And it pisses me off when they hang out but i cant say that. Because he once said he would never date a girl who would complain about his friends. So life is hard. He also got a job, im motivated to get one too. My mother knows the ppl who work at the kfc near her work. She got me an application and i have an interview friday at 3pm. Right after were going down to grams house :) we were suppose to go camping but that was disided against cuz rv isnt ready.
Easter was good jess bought me bubbles which for some reason i cant find (laura) and a stuffed purple and white cow its actuly pretty cute i picked it out.
Kenz pissed me off really badly yesterday. I asked her to ask kyle if he still likes me. He of course replyes telling her its none of her buisness if he still likes me. And just to ask katie. (me). Which pissed her off and she yelled at him saying she wont take me over to him ever again. Than she yelled at me bc i didnt defend her. I never thought of defending her. Shes a grown ass women who knows how to defend her self. She yelled at me saying that she doesnt think she can be my friend because i didnt defend her i told her i understood both sides he shouldnt of said that but she shouldnt of freaked outlike that. But whatever her problem.

mia nessi are at some point gonna have kittens idk when but sigh mia is sooo pregnant
today a bull dog came into the yard and she ran after him and they were squaring off a big fat pregnant cant vrs huge ass dog. She even tried to attack him he reed back and slobbered all over the place and was gonna attack her i grabed her and walked off put her in the house but she wouldnt stay it was annoying.

long day short days sigh

On wednesday the 7th i seen kyle again. We played monopoly my leg was hurting and kenz kept tickiling kyle tickeled my foot and hes really sweet. Im still way shy. Today i went to barnsandnobles and got a nook for free tickets for the hunger games on the 21 its a screening so we get to see it b4 alot of ppl cant wait to watch it :)

Friday March 2

Friday-March-2

I hung out with Kyle at his place. With kenzie, it was sort of weird because they have dated and the way they talked annoyed me. And when he looked at her annoyed me. But he says he likes me, he told kenz im cute, shy, and like-able. I hope that means Girlfriend materiel. :) He is so sweet and cute really tall too. He has a nice friend too shane i think? We mostly watched shane play his game and they tried tickling me the whole time. :) im glad i got to meet kyle iv been talking to him for more than a year. Crazy right. If we date which would be awesome i hope that ill get to know his family and friends and be comfortable at his house.

The only thing i didn't like was that kenz got all dressed up to go over there. And they talked way more than i did. And when i tried saying something they would talk over me. It felt like i lost my voice. And it really frustrated me That they did that. I just hope he doesn't have any lingering feelings for kenz. I tried saying he cant have too much to do with her. Like he asked who she was txting and i said its none of your business. But that's really mean of me right? I mean if he truly likes kenz and if she likes him...... :( i cant stop them from that. OOOO i want to cry now . Lets hope for the best in any situation that arises. Because if i truly had to just be his friend and watch him go out with someone else i wouldn't be able to do it.

iv had a fun few days tho with kenz. Sometimes she can be too much but she is my best friend. I cant complain way to much but i do. Im sorry about that.

:/ Katie

i hate guys

I learned that when i was with a guy last july he was with another girl. Hes been asking to be with me for months on end. And it turns out they have been dating the whole time. So i met her showed her the txts he sent me and there still together. Shes fucking stupid as they come. Then this other guy who said he likes me his gf whos pregnet messages me yells at me like its my fault. Ah hello if you cant keep your man on a leash how the fuck should i know if hes with someone. His pro says single, looking. How can i trust any guys anymore. How am i to date anyone im affraid they are cheating or cheating on me. What do i do stay single forever. How am i to get married one day how will i have love if i cant trust him. I wish there was someone to talk to but there never is. My best friend i fucking hate her. My family doesnt understand or know alot about me. I have no one. NO ONE.

January 2012

were alive XD.

well its 2012 guess what the world didnt end. lol. Well iv been up to nothing at all. just talking to ppl not very often. :P went to the movies yesterday we bought a zoo its really cute. i like it but mom and laura kept talking. I mixed up the set numbers we werre row I seats 1 2 3 i thought it said 11 12 13 lol so i had us in the wrong seats haha. kenz is pissing me off alot she asked to hanged out and i said maybe. i was really busy today with family and she goes. When will i get my phone back. fuck you bitch come get it. god damnit she pisses me off sometimes ok alot but grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. whatever