almost halloween

My family is a bit stressed we have less than 7 days to finish our haunted walk through . We are far but we need to buckle down and work harder. I hope we scare even more people this year. Best part of all its free. :) I miss talking to him but thats all.

over, done, gone

Well today kyle told me that he could never love me. And that for months now he didnt want to date me. Even though i asked him if he still liked me he kept saying yes. He basically said it was my fault. That i couldn't take a hint. Well when i ask you if you still liked me and wanted to date me, and you say yes. What the fuck do you expect me to think. Oh haha you like me wheres the hint that you don't?? Josh was right waiting for someone who doesn't care about you is a waste of time. Josh even said that he would steal me from kyle even if kyle loved me. Which he doesn't. He says i pressed the relationship thing. I didn't press it i just asked if he still wanted to date me. All i was doing was making sure of his feelings for me. I wasn't asking if he would date me right fucking now. Ah hello! i know how hard his life is and all that. I wasn't asking to date right now. So now everything my fault and we are totally done forever. Yes i cried, i cried so much that my eyes hurt. My cheeks feel funny. I did however noticed that sometimes im a pretty crier o.o. TMI. It hurt when he said all that. My heart hurts. For months now im contemplated leaving him and all his B.S but i couldnt every time it came to it i couldnt do it. Because i couldn't see a world without kyle in it. He now choose to leave me. In a way i wasnt good enough. That its my fault. That i ask to much of him. He says he hates jealous people. Hmmm well when you only see your friends and not once see me how am i supposed to act. 2 years that iv known him almost more than a year that iv liked him. And he does this to me. He wont even miss me. He wont even think of me. Ill be the one missing him. Ill be the one thinking of him. All i have left to do is forget him.