crazy days, lives, and friends

I like my best friends ex bf. Well okay i adore him, hes just adorable. Hes so sweet to me and we have a whole lot in common. Like i love the hold so does he, and anime and how i want to travel to japan like for a while and werewolf and so much more. hes so great i almost talk to him almost everyday :) It will be our first time not speaking for three days. See im going camping with my family and were bringing trever. But im really sad cuz ill miss kiba so much hes so great.

im annoyed at my friends

It all started when kenzie started hanging around me again. See we havent seen much of each other allot in the last two years. So shes been spending days with me. But at the begging she was dating this guy, who has a whole lot in common with me. And we go see him and hes acting like an ass to her from out point of veiw. But later that night he calls me and tells me whats up. How if she actuly got out of her car and walked with him they could have talked and hung out because he was at work and couldnt just stop working. Well she didnt do that she stay by or in her car 90% of the time. So when he says something she leaves and later breaks up with him. I told her to wait a week before breaking up with him because she would regret it. Well turns out i was right she regreted it and wants him back. well he says no that he doesnt want to date right now. Not her anyway. And me and him become really good friends. Well she asks me not to speak to him so i lie and say im not which is bad but its like im addicted to him. Well i was feeling bad about it for a week and i disided to tell her the truth. Shes mad and ever since has been telling me that she would have left the guy if he was my ex and i asked her not to speak to him. But yea okay hun but i dont want to leave him. I KNOW IM A BITCH FOR THIS AND I KNOW SHES MORE IMPORTANT BUT IM ADDICTED TO THIS ASSWHOLE AND I CANT STOP MYSelf. Its weird i cant help my self and now everyday she hangs out with me she complains and says she will find me a new guy and to talk to other guys more and blah blah blah but what about what i want. He may be an ass to me but not as much as an ass to her and yea what he wants from me and me to do for him is such evil that its rude but i like him. see he wants me to go on a diet to become skinny if i ever date him and i have a time period. First off lol i aint doing it id like to but i wouldnt change myself for anyone but me so im going to work out and do become skinny but not for him not for my friends or family. IM DOING IT FOR ME. im worth something great just like everyone else its just hiding


now for some reall shit.
Angela the bitch, whore of a neighbor accused me of stealing her shit. Why the fuck would i take her shit. there fucking poor and crazy. I dont steal at all. they dont seem to beilieve me but what the fuck would i want her newspaper her sons shoe and now her stupid fucking bike??? i dont want them i dont want anything and she doesnt believe me.

It all started like this>> this is the truth and i would never lie to you blog

angelas kids were in my yard when i walked out taking would from the rose bushes. I asked what there doing and they told me taking back the wood laura STOLE from them. I told them there acting like 2 year olds and that laura wouldnt understand that stealing so they leave and im out front waiting for my friend to pick me up. then angea the whore comes over and asks me what i told her kids i told her that i told them there acting like 2 year olds. she tells me that is disrespcectful and its harming a child. ( bitch iv asked every mother in the neighborhood its not harming a child)she then tells me to not speak to her children so i called her a bitch to her face and she walks off. My mother comes out side and i tell her what happend.
Then i leave.
one our two days later im home playing on the computer all day or reading my book and then im with my friend makenzie blah blah blah angela comes over and asks very rudely to speak to me i didnt want to talk to her but i go out to. She asks if iv seen her newspaper i tell her no cuz i havent and she tells me shes asking if i stole it because im the only one mad at her. I tell her no why would i steal your newspaper and shes like "well your the only one whos mad at me So its best to give back my newspaper right now before later on" Shes like telling me she knows i have it and i should give it back right now and shes looking at me very rudely i tell her that i dont have her newspaper and that it would be the stupidest fucking thing to take. I cant remember everything else but she leaves and i go down and tell my parents that angelas accusing me of stealing her shit. so my moms yelling at her for accusing me of shit and angeals saying really mean shit so my mom tells her to get off her land. Angela says its the states land cuz sidewalks dont belong to people. so she leaves then comes back with her husband tells my mom that shes sick of us and how we live and shes being very rude to laura like very rude like im going to hurt you mean so angela is crazy PPL be care full around my neighbor!!!!!!!!!!!!

now shes accusing me of stealing her bike lol shes a fucking whore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What do you do when you lie to your best friend. It gets easier each time, does that mean shes really my best friend or the person i keep around? Lately all i do is lie to her and it doesnt even faze me. It comes so easily and i cant believe she accepted it. Like take this she breaks up with her bf which is my newest friend. And then ask's me to stop talking to him, i of course told her i did. But i really did was change his name in my cell and said i stoped talking to him. Is this horrible or what lol. I havent seen that one doctor lady yet mom takes forever. But i have been watching more vampire show's like true blood, moonlight, wes craven presents Dracula 2. I love the vampire in this movie towards the end he is yummy looking lol. Mia had a baby kitten i dont remember when thats the problem but shes soo tiny and cute.

ok i dont feel so good so going to go now

love

katie

well i did what i didn't want to do most! I went to the clinic and got checked by a doctor. I told about the bump and my period problem. Turns out my aunt had the same problem with her period, so i guess thats okay. But not sure about the bump, the side pains are gone. The doc had put me on some really good medz. I was told there the best pain killers and people go crazy just to get them. o.0 weird huh. I am so excited about graduating nervous though i have to raise my grades asap. Sarah and my other friends are going to lagoon for w/e reason. I felt so left out, like in the past that i almost cry'd how bad is that. So i made my self walk away, i didnt want to cry again in there. Oh yea last week i went to doctors ( stated this already) but the reason i said lets go was because i started to cry like a baby in the hallway after my art class. My side had been hurting for the full two hours o.0 yes i know thats long. And so i just burst into tears when the teacher made me come back and collect the paper towels of the table. I even was hyperventilating which isnt good. And Terry J asked what was wrong. So yea nothing good nothing to bad to tell. ^__^ me is reading Usagi Drop its a great manga, and is re-reading skip beat itl be my 5 time re-reading it i simply love it.

well gtg

Love Katie

im not giving up im accepting my fate

im starting to lose face
im starting to not feel okay
wondering what im losing today
what ill lose tommarow
it hurts knowing i dont have long
its not okay to see what i cant have
to never know what itl feel like
i dont want to hurt you i dont want to leave you either
but time is running out
im ganna be gone

life conflicts

today iv been in so much pain i felt as if i was going to pass out or scream. o.0 yup my stumic is having cramps but thats not as bad as my side. oh god it hurt so much i wanted to scream and scream. well i found out my friend jj is into girls. thats fine shes a great friend. im gland kiki jj and i are friends. were going camping i cant sleep im ganna bring the pain killer medz. watched vampire diaries it was awesome so good soo good. got my jostins stuff yup im graduating so excited so nervous dont know if i can do this uggg. lol


love katie

o.0 wow

"Kiki Marie What people don't realize is that the person that hides away the one that keeps behind a mask of a fake smile or an I'm ok those are the people that need someone there for them the most those are the people that need a friend just to say hi or a hug because those that don't feel they have something to live for will be lost and there is no greater tragedy then when an innocent soul withers."

my friend kiki posted this on her facebook. And i can tell you this is how i feel. But im not looking for that stuff anymore