2/1/2014

I went and hung out with kyle. :) it was nice to get away from everything from everyone. I really have missed him, although i have forgotten just how tall he is. :) we hung out with his friend mike and we walked over to a diner it was really amazing :). And i also watched an ep of the X-files :). tis was an awesome night/day lol.

Im done

Im giving up on you... Im done.. i love these songs

good news

One of my oldest friends told me he likes me. To tell you the truth i have always liked him. he hurt me once but its ok to like him right? he is so sweet and kind. Well in the next couple months hopefully ill get my car and license so i can take some time and get used to the idea :). im wishing my self good luck that may be bad luck but iv had a whole lot of bad luck that i deserve some good right? lol

grrrr

This is what he wrote to me today I love her with all my heart and a lot more than I did you. I care about u but I can never go back to u I was not truly happy. I hope u can get over me but I won't go back to u. I can't go back to u anymore. You should get some help with your feelings and get out of the house and meet people. I'm going to block u now please don't contact me or my family anymore. You are making me feel guilty and angry and I don't need to feel that way. im done now.. he can go fuck it for all i care..

bleh

Iv been crying for the last 6 days. My heart hurts my eyes hurt :/. I miss him so much all the time but there is nothing i can do. He is happy with her and not me. I have to move on but it hurts a whole lot. I wish i knew what to do. I read some some off google. Guys suck you know that right. It hasnt even been that long and he moved on i hate him and miss him. What do i do?

exs are just a waste of space youd think they would turn to dust when ur done with them but i guess not

I did what i did not want to do and it hurt like hell. I messaged camaron oliver and told him i missed him and he informed me that hes already with someone new. My chest feels like its tight and it hurts. Does that count as heartbroken? or just pain? I cried to i didnt think i would but it upset me so bad. Maybe i did really love the fool. Im sad and lonely. But maybe now i can consentrate on me? i dont know tho grr. I messaged him and told him all i had to tell him then blocked him. I do not ever want to see nor speak to that fool again. I really do hate him now. I really really do. I find myself pretty stupid. I want to get over him and start over. Wish me good luck tho i dont know how ill ever get through this (said no one ever) :P lol sadly madly Love Katie

:(

I havent been doing so well. I really miss my ex is it possible to love someone with everything except your heart? o.o thats just weird huh. My work has been driving me mad. So far in the last 3 weeks iv only worked about 4 days in all my pay check is so small i can hardly pay for my bills. Im gonna confront my tiny boss and demand answer. -_- I want to lose weight but my laziness is getting in the way how to over come it?? On a good note i got my laptop working. Thanks to my dad :) i have missed using it its just not the same without it lol. Iv got to start studying more for my up and coming test yaa Maybe missing someone is a way of getting over them. I need something big to take my mind off these things. What to do What to do.