exs are just a waste of space youd think they would turn to dust when ur done with them but i guess not

I did what i did not want to do and it hurt like hell. I messaged camaron oliver and told him i missed him and he informed me that hes already with someone new. My chest feels like its tight and it hurts. Does that count as heartbroken? or just pain? I cried to i didnt think i would but it upset me so bad. Maybe i did really love the fool. Im sad and lonely. But maybe now i can consentrate on me? i dont know tho grr. I messaged him and told him all i had to tell him then blocked him. I do not ever want to see nor speak to that fool again. I really do hate him now. I really really do. I find myself pretty stupid. I want to get over him and start over. Wish me good luck tho i dont know how ill ever get through this (said no one ever) :P lol sadly madly Love Katie