break up

he broke up with me ahahahah :'( i cant stop crying. i know it wasn't that long of a relationship but... i was so happy..... i didn't even want to wake up this morning i kept praying for me to never wake up.. but i did and i cant seem to stop crying. it hurts it really hurts i thought that i could be with him. i wanted a future with him. id of done anything for that. And i was so stupid to think that anyone could ever love me. Blog guys suck he was my first kiss. That day he made me feel so pretty and wanted. i just wanted to see him again was that so wrong. was it so wrong to want to talk to him. maybe i was to clingy. but the truth was it felt like he was pulling away the night i went to see him. after that it broke, it hurt that he didn't want to talk to me abt his problems. i was his gf y couldn't i help him. I shouldn't have even asked if i could i kept making him mad. Im new at having A REAL LIFE BF. im so used to having phone/online bfs that i didnt know what to do how to act. overwhelming that i just held to tightly. And now i cant stop crying. iv lost the best thing that ever happend to me i was so happy. i dont know what to do anymore, sure i had problems but doesnt everyone. yea mine are bad real bad but is that a reason to stop loving me.. maybe he never loved me maybe i was used........ but i dont want to think of him that way i loved him. I love his eyes i use to hate brown eyes but when i was his they were so pretty and his personality was so diffrent that i loved it. I didnt care if he had a job or a place to live damnation. He was mine.... hes not mine. i cant breath now it feels like im not getting any air and i cant stop the tears. will it stop hurting all i ever thought abt was him.... i trusted him