Broken

yesterday he tells me he needs space. that he cant be with me anymore. its not you its me really haha. that he only needs it for a little while. i feel like bella who lost edward. i even had a nightmare and i cant sleep and all i do is cry. oh god everything is ruined. He says he will come back to me but to leave me in the first place what will stop him from doing it again i dont trust him anymore. and that breaks my heart all over again. what if there is someone else or its cuz im not skinny or that im far away or that i try to talk to him everyday. he said he didnt mind that that he liked it. Im not ok this time the other times yea i wasnt ok but this time my family knew him.... i thought we were each others ones. He told me he wanted me to be his last. i wanted him to be mine tooo. he tells me i dont have to wait for him. what does that mean that hes really not coming back to me. that it was a lie god i cant handle this. iv done the only thing i could do iv packed my bags im leaving he wants space how 3 hours away of space of driving tho hahaha im going to my grandmas house in couple hours i still need to check if i have everything..... well i cant be here he has laid on my bed walked around my room sat on my couch petted all my dogs i see this and i cry cry cry. i want him back but will he really come back everything is ruined and my life is over yes im being a dramatic fool but i cant help it he ment more too me than anyone did now i have nothing