Happy New Year 2014

Happy New Year everyone hope this year will be amazing. My new years resolutions 1. lose weight 2. earn more money 3. get a car 4. get a drivers license 5. fall in love again 6. be the best auntie ever 7. HAVE FUN!!!!!

12/17/1991 13

Today is my 22nd birthday. Not much went on was home almost all day just watched tv and hung out with family. Watched a k-drama. And felt sad, an old friend never wished me a happy birthday. An old friend that i spent almost every birthday with for over 10 years never even messaged me today. I learned that no one stays around forever. She made her choice and i have made mine. I never forget and i never forgive. Kenzie you were my best friend, we have been through so much together. You were like a little big sister to me. And now your a stranger, nothing but stranger. I gave you 24 hours but i give up now. I wont be there when you need me cuz you turned ur back on me. And in doing so mine is turned to you. This year has been wonderful, hard, fun, lovefull, sad, wishful. And i cant wait for a new one to start. New friends new loves new me. My past is in the past my future is tomorrow im reaching out and willing to have fun :). love and happy birthday to me katie

then and now

I broke up with cam on Oct 19th gave back his phone he let me borrow which was an iphon 4s. I really miss that iphone lol. I also miss him but no in a boyfriend way in a way that a friend would miss a friend who just stopped seeing them. Halloween was ok we made 137 and was able to buy 2 props which sucked. I also spent my whole pay check on halloween stuff which was not good i didnt calculate it very well lol im down to less then 200 bleh. Back to work iv been off for 10 days only asked for 9 but they gave me an extra day lol. I think they missed me cuz they schedualed me 5 days instead of the normal 3-4 that i asked for. What im really nervous about is black Friday. I have no clue how horrible it will be :(

7-2-13--7-3-13

at midnight on july 2 i went to go see a movie with camaron despicable me 2. :) i had fun sitting with him im so glad i have him. <3 camaron :) we also took pictures together sooo cute i know right. im so glad i have him. love katie

my dream

I had a dream that it was the first day of high school all over again. And i couldnt find any pants o i had to wear a long skirt which had pockets on the right with a belt. And so im running around and aubry was trying to get me to go out side so we wont be late i told her to go on and id meet her at bus stop. so when i get there the bus arives and we get on and the seats are sideway and some are ones up againts the wall so i sit on an empty seat thats up against awall and a guy and a girl sit next to me and basicaly lean over the front of me and start whatever. And other ppl on the bus are like hey that girl is most likely freaking out let her breath lol. oh and the bus driver was one iv had before so he said sorry to me. And then when we get to the school how to get off the bus was a half door and you sat down and slid out onto the ground X). the school was huge and all the classes are in weird places and there made of wood and glass windows. in class we all ask to go to the restroom and so he hands out this restroom time clock. i asked if its ok if i went too. and he said something about him having one too the papers. so were all walking around with a map of the school but it doesnt have names on anything so were just randomly looking through places and i go up to a tall dark skinned guy and im like hey wheres the bathrooms and he leds me on my way but is trying to feel me up the whole time and when i get to the bathroom i had to wait a sec to get in. But that when i go in i noticed that the door is glass you cant see in but you can see out. and then i hear on the other side that two ppl are getting it on lol. so i sit on the toilet which is facing the wall oppisite the door so right next to the door and its a mirror and you can see all the kids walking by so i pull my skirt up far enought that you dont see anything and was just about to take a picture of myself and them. when i woke up X). moral of this story i really had to pee in real life. second maybe i should go back to school. and third need to control cam.

6/25/13

In the morning i went to kenzies house to hang out with her her. I was supposed to spend the day with camaron but i had gotten nervous and didnt want to go alone. So i had kenzie come with me. He picked kenzie and i up from her house and took us to my fav coffee shop where he bought us all coffee. AWW so sweet of him huh. Then he took us to cafe rio and bought us food. My boyfriend is so sweet isnt he :). Then we had to go buy shots for kenzies puppies. But first we had to go to her house to pick up the card then to cattle ranch then back to her house then to a gas station then to brents house to pick him up for her. then we all drove around and went to the coffee place again and watched the sunset :). then we ended up at cams apt bur didnt go inside. we kissed in his car then layed down on the grass. He invited me to go to mexico in december o.o. wow umm fast? lol. then he drove us home and i slept over at kenzies. o.o i dreamnt about zombies lol that was my date. but he gave me a gift and ill treasure it for as long as im with him. Idk i could be with him forever or a while. i really dont know the future or what could happen. who knows i could marry him one day. but i dont know that.

6/15/13

I had saturday off and i was supposed to go to laggon with my sister and my niece. So i wake up at 8 am and take a bath shave and get ready for the day. As i go up stairs i notice that my sisters car is gone. Wondering where she went i called her a million times just to find out she went 2 hours away to look at a truck. Which by the way they didnt buy. So then i left with kenzie and we returned my bra to the store. went to the mall to find her a new bra and they didnt have it so we went to another mall and they did have it. So then we went threw a couple stores like spencers and hottopic. then after that we go to my work and buy this purse that iv been wanting but i got munthers advice then ignored his advice lol and bought it anyway. We then went to fye and bought movies and cds. Right after a guy calls kenzs and asks if she would like to hang. She says yes so i call Camaron and ask him to meet us at panda by my house. The best part is the two guys showed up at the same time XD. Then i sugest we go to a park so kenz says follow me. And she drives all the way to this small town thats past her house like out past the dump. and she takes us to this amazing park thats really pretty. Where Camaron asks me to be his gf and i said yes. So then after all our chatting which cam kept tickling me and poking me we all left and went to the drive in. It was funny bc i rode with Cam and we get there and wait for kenzie before we go in and so we diside just to go in and we get up there and we both dont have cash only cards so we had to go to a gas station to get cash. lol.. we went to see the purge but we really didnt watch it XD. After the movie and a little bit into the next one we all leave and i go to cams apartment. for a bit he has 2 new cats there really sweet. WEll thats how he asked me to be his gf. lol that was the point of this blog post XD love love love katie

a date, a sisters wrath, just wanted some fun

I started talking to this guy named camaron, and then i met him on Monday June 10 at west Jordan park with kenzie. It was a pretty night and i was nervous. We learned that he was a unicorn. You shall not know what it is because i shall not say. Then i had a date with him at his apartment. We watched two anime movies talked ate pizza which iv never had that kind before. With onions on the inside lol. among other things. Point one he loves to keep his place freezing cold lol. Point two i want to trade him beds. He didnt have a couch which is fine i don't care. His bed was soooo soft i could sit in it all day lol. Hes a really sweet guy. And i hope to see him more often. My sister ended up freaking out because she didnt know where i was. I told them i was going to kenzies. I wonder how she found out i wasn't with kenzie because she ended up calling and freaking out on me. I wouldn't answer her calls so in the end i ended up telling her i was out on a date. She freaked out and basically said i didn't trust her. Well hello i don't she would of made fun of me and make me tell her every little detail i don't want to tell her every little detail. Im not like my brother and sister, i didnt just go out and hang out with people or go on dates. I stayed home every day of my life. I stayed in my little box and didnt come out. At some point id start to feel that my life had no color. That every day was bleak. So why cant i get a life like everyone else? Why is that so bad that i want to go out and have fun?? idk huh. My family act like its a sin for me to do anything with anyone. All i want to do is get out meet ppl have fun. And they were holding me back with responsibility's that i didnt want. I want to feel like other ppl. With not allot of love Katie

just working

well since i got this job iv been working a whole lot. Not in the sense of someone else but in my way lol. Im use to being home alone. now i have somewhere to be and something to do. its annoying but it gets me money. I also bought a season pass for lagoon and here soon one for a water park. gotta keep busy. also theres this guy i might meet idk if it will go anywhere but a chance is a chance right. love katie

My dream and what i think it means

Last night i dremnt that i went to a very special arctic circle with my best friend. The reason it was special bc in the dream i would go there often as a child with my family. This particular artic circle is special it isnt on the ground and isnt safe. It is being held up by a net of chains. Cars can still drive down to it because its right in the middle and its bowing like a trampoline if you have everyone in the middle it goes down. So me and kenzie go there and sit at these side boths that are really big. i couldnt decide what i wanted and chose randomly while she got a peanut butter shake. What i really wanted was this huge banana split in my dream it had like 6 different ice creams and it was in a contest to whoever finished it in time would get there picture on the wall. Im not sure if there were any winners yet. I hinted that i wanted to do it, but kenzie was like NO. So as we were leaving i went threw the kitchen and the way they did it was there are tiled numbers huge and they would place the order on them so they would know who to give it too. And the cook or whatever was really cute. Then we went out side and was walking on the net chain really carefully because if it broke we all would die. i remember either walking up the chain or driving up it. than my dream changed i was in shopko once again i dont remember why but every night iv dreamed that im in shopko lol. Ok the meaning to thins in my dreams in the waking world. Arctic circle is the place i really wanted to go bc i really want ice cream lately its on chains because its my will to only have sweets now and then and not every day like everyone else but i personalty know it will break if im not careful. The booths are from my favorite Mexican restaurant that i go with jess and omar. The ice cream i really wanted badly was the one from dennys just bigger. My appetite has gotten bigger for it. The cute guy and the ice cream are from this guy im talking too he works at arctic circle and i told him i loved there ice creams. The peanut butter shake i had with aubry when we were younger with mat and kayla. and shopko i feel that my life consist of shopko. yup those are the reasons i had this dream tonight. LOL

working

Working is so hard, im not used to it. And they are working me over time from the hours that i said i could work. A girl who was hired with me was fired for not showing up. Now there taking it out on me and being mean. im not used to being on my feet for so many hours i can barely make 4 and next week they want me to do 8 hour shift o.o. Its not fair. I really hate working there now.

festival of colors 2013 SLC

went to the festival of colors SLC 2013 it was allot of fun cant wait for next year

I got a job

i GOT A JOB! And its really hard :( lol. We put returns back out onto the floor. we gather up cloths and find there spot and correct how they look. than straighten everything and people mess things up it really sucks. its hard because i have no idea what im doing.

some of the goings on of 2013

Well i have a second job interview today, im very nervous. Because in fact i was horrible in the last one and i know it. And the only reason im getting the second one is because Jessica is my sister. But eh a chance is a chance. If i get the job my plans are as follows. Go to wendover, pay half the room, buy kenzie a birthday basket of tiny lil alcohols. Than get a phone. Unless i really want one but that will be after a long time. I dont want to buy a phone then end up losing the job. That would just suck. So work for a while than get a phone. April 20th and 27th. I want to do things like the color festival and the japanese festival. So lets see if we can. Right now im sicker than a dog. My throat hurts my nose is runny. My ears hurt and sting sometimes. I have a horrible cough. I passed out day before yesterday after a hot hot bath. I knew i shouldn't of taken that hot hot bath but i was really cold cold cold. I want to have fun this year. So i might be getting a Lagoon pass. Crossing my fingers.

dreams

I had a dream about a bad boy and his friends. and so im just going to write about the parts i remember. riding on the bus and traxs with them. in a bedroom fighting with the ones friends we sorta kiss but it was open mouth. umm the cute one and i went to moms work but her work was more like a shop in japan lol. we walk out side its i think theres snow but im not cold. we might ride a bus and somehow end up going to his house which is the apartments in my neighborhood. And i was walking towards his home when these ppl like things jump him and end up killing him. im devistated bc we liked each other and they are vampires lol. these ppl show up and start attacking them. and one vampire girl attacks me but she cant capture me im too fast ever since i was with the cute guy. and she summons her mini hers which i was like ooo so cute and there ooo thank you and shes like aah hello attack duhh and i summon mine which is impossible bc im not a vampire lol oh and we fight. umm oh and the cute guy was a vampire he turned to a puf of dust i was sooo sad.

betrayal

betrayal is painful. When the one you love discides they dont love you back anymore. ANYMORE. in fact they betrayed you with another. While begging you to stay friends with them. Only making the pain worse. How can you be friends with someone you love? you cant. At some point the shit hits the fan. And when you say no to friendship they freak. And blame you for there mistakes. They make it seem like its ur fault when in fact they are the one to lose you. Love is painful. love is betrayal. Love is Love

library emberesment

As i stepped into the library i was ecstatic. I was there for one thing and one thing only. To print off free passes to see 21 and over. And as i got closer to the computers i could see that there almost all full. so i look for an empty one with a blue screen and i see it. So i hurry over there claiming its mine mentally. And as i sit down upon the chair. The chair as if on its own accord was ripped out from under neath me it goes flying i go falling. All in all i was so surprised that i sat there for a minute. Slightly confused. Did this really happen, did i once again fall off a chair. Did i break it by sitting on it?? than i was pissed i hurry and kneel and grab the chair standing it and my self up. Only one person asked if i was ok. I stammered that i was and turned around and re-sat on the chair. totally embarrassed but i couldn't leave i had a mission to do. So i sat there logging in and tracking down all the different emails with the free passes and i send them off to be printed. While i sat there listening to children laugh. When i was done i head over to the printer all relieved that i was finally going to get out of there. As i hit print nothing happened. My brother who was with me seen that the printer was out of ink and told the lady. She was snappy at first because she says they only change it if the ink is out. Well lady its out. As she comes over im hoping no eyes are on us, because i was still very embarrassed. I was only about a foot away from those people who seen me go down. And while standing there i thought this will only take a minute. Nope i had to stand there for at least 5-10 minutes waiting for the printer to configure it self. All in all what i learned from this is library's are not a safe place. o.o those chairs are evil. And i need to lose weight :(

Valentines day

Happy valentines day everyone. I wish i had someone special to celebrate it with. But since i dont than ill just be happy lol

weight :(

OH MY GOD. I cant believe i gained so much weight. :( i need to work out more. Right away i jumped on the treadmill. tomorrow im gonna get on it and than do my bbc. Heck no this year im losing weight. -_- no matter what

its funny

Marty and I had a huge fight. And than we stopped talking. Every single day iv been missing him and wishing he would contact me. The funny thing is iv hardly to none thought about him today. And guess what? He messages me. isnt that crazy. LoL.

new possibly

Lately iv been talking to this guy name marty and hes really sweet. Im not use to a guy being so lovey dovey its just a little unsettling but i like him for it. I just hope that when we meet it wont be a problem lol. not in the way ur thinking in the way im thinking. Like conversation wise. Im really horrible at it at talking to people. Im a watcher i watch people. I dont interact with them. And when i do i mostly just listen and nod my head and smile and laugh when they do. Kinda like a robot who just knows when to smile and laugh from how someone else is talking or from how there face looks. lol. Its been like this my whole life. Im slightly def and so i have to pretend to be listening sometimes and so yea. But the only turn off about this guy is we were talking about kids names (idk how this happend lol) and i realllllly want my little boy to be named damon. but i guess his family has a tradition of naming the first born boy marty. Hes the 3rd marty. its not a very long tradition. lol. but still it made me like him a little less. i feel really horrible for admitting that tho. :( im a bad person.

New Years Resolution

My new years resolution, 1. work out more this year 2. ride my bike more 3. get a job 4. buy galaxy note 2 5. go on some sort of vacation 6. read 50 or more books 7. Get a bf 8. try and get cats fixed 9. change facebook cover photo 10. eat at salad bar 11. make new friends 12. acutaly hang out with those new friends 13. get drivers license 14. possibly get own car 15. be nice to laura 16. try be nicer to rondo 17. go to more free movies 18. maybe get a new bed 19. try get more cloths 20. get a mammogram done 21. take pills every day 22. watch less dramas work out just a little more 23. eat more fruits and veggies 24. maybe buy gummie bears online 15. try out my 2 telescopes Of i can at least do 10 of these by 2014 than ill be happy

Happy New Year

Last night i got to try 3 new alcoholic drinks. All three were very yummy lol. I watched the ball drop with my brother and while i was reading a book. Happy New Year to anyone who reads this.